Here I am, once again caught up in the humdrum of life, going
to classes, giving presentations, writing quizzes every other day, working on inconsequential
projects as a part of our courses, losing myself in the company of friends,
reading random articles on the net. Stuck in the calm between storms, falling
into a routine is something that is never immediately realized.
Falling into a routine does have its advantages, the
comfortable life with no real thinking and no real effort is something that I can
easily get used to partly because of my laziness. It gives me time to think and
reflect back to what I want to do. It
also lets me spend all my time achieving none of it.
It’s this that kicks me back to action, when I realize that I’ve
done nothing of what I wanted to achieve and that this routine is simply
cheating me out of my time that I break out of it and get back to writing, reading
papers and analyzing options and this is when I feel most alive but it always
raises one question.
Why do I do what I do?
Why do I write? Why do I try to research papers that I hardly
ever understand? Why do I try to design projects that I’ll never get around to
making?
The answer for each is different but they all have one thing
in common. They make me think. They force me out of my comfort zone and make me
think in ways that I’d never think about in my routine and that in essence is
what makes them refreshing. I might have
ambitions but they’re all in the long term, not something I think about too
much, what I do like to think about are things which break the mould and having
an ambition that lines up with this, that is just a happy coincidence.
For all my reader who made it here, THANKS!, its been a
while since I put up random thoughts on my blog, do let me know what you think
